7/31/14 – Day 186: Ebbs and Flows

Thursday, July 31 – Day 186

Today was not an easy day (for you, which of course, means it wasn’t awesome for me either).

Back spasms. Tagging (consigning) with kids going crazy. And a few other things.

No worries though. The day is over (by about a month and a half as I’m finishing up this post).

One thing we’ve learned: Every day ain’t one of them walks in the park.

Day 171 – Tennis night

Day 171 – Wednesday July 16, 2014

It was sweet of you to come watch me play tennis.

And Instagram it.

I don’t look skinny, but as I always tell you, that’s not the right focus. I’m out, getting exercise. You and the kids watching me win a match (although the boys, apparently, were more interested in the towel I was using to wipe my sweat). Strange boys. Curious boys. The coolest boys ever.

And our little girl dropped her Rainbow Loom bands all over the ground (the horror!).

It was fun to have you there, although I must admit I felt more pressure. I wanted my sweet wife to be impressed by my athletic prowess.

Tennis anyone.

Day 170 – When heaven opened and poured out cheesecake

Day 170 – Tuesday, July 15th, 2014

One of our vendors takes us to the Cheesecake Factory every once in a while. Today, it happened.

A quick note – I hate how the Big Bang Theory makes the Cheesecake Factory look like it employs people from the Germany area of Epcot Center. I’ve never seen the waitstaff dress like Penny does in that show.

Anyway, as an excuse, I think, for her to buy her own self a cheesecake slice or three, our vendor always allows us to order a piece. And today, she let us order one for ourselves and our spouses.

So, we didn’t have to decide between Snickers and Reeses Cheesecake. We got both. It was awesome. We ate on those pieces of cheesecake for three days.

Cheesecake heaven

Cheesecake heaven

Day 169 – The splinter of horror

Day 169 – Monday July 14th, 2014

Really, anytime our kids get a splinter it is the splinter of horror. They fear greatly the tweezers.

It’s seriously the most frustrating near medical procedure that we have to do. That and cut the boys’ hair – also an exercise in herding cats or juggling squirrels.

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It is not an exaggeration to say that it always reminds me of those civil or revolutionary war medical scenes where the disheveled doctor digs out buckshot from a soldier’s behind.

Glad I was at work. ūüôā

7/31/14 Day 186 (pt 2) – Good habits and bad habits

Day 186- Thursday 7/31/14

We’ve had a couple interesting conversations recently. Conversations that don’t leave me feeling awesome about my skills as a financial provider.

I know this isn’t the place to air dirty laundry, but I wanted to give context.

You are the most important person in my life. And while you are the most important person in my life, I still can’t allow your ebbs and flows to determine my states of mind at any given moment.

Similarly, you can’t allow my moods to determine your current feelings.

I believe that’s what codependence is or what can lead to codependence.

I have to love you enough not to get swept up in your crazy when you’re going through a rough patch. And you can’t afford to allow yourself to get caught up in my crazy or feelings of insecurity.

The biggest thing, though, is we can’t get in the habit of giving ourselves over to our rough spots. Just because we feel something, doesn’t mean our actions have to follow.

And that’s something I’m trying to learn. If I don’t catch myself and correct myself or understand¬†why I’m having an angry, insecure, lashing out moment, then it can lead to this habit of demanding my rights. I don’t have that right – not if my heart is to have a growing, healthy marriage and family. ¬†If I give a crap about you and our children and our future, then nope, I don’t have the right to be a jerk¬†and stay there. ¬†Regardless of the circumstances, I gave up that right.

So… The point of this post is simply to recommit to keeping my side of the street clean. I need to be aware of my habits. And I need to watch myself.

And I need to love you unconditionally like Christ loves the church. There’s no person on this earth who is ALWAYS easy to love. Neither you nor I¬†am always the sweetest, most lovable individuals in the world at all times. That’s too much to ask of anybody.

I love you when you’re unloveble. And I pray that you love me when I’m unlovable. ¬†That’s a good habit to put into practice.

I love you. I love us.

7/30/14 – Day 185: You’re an encourager

I was working on developing a new networking relationship that could potentially be very powerful for us.

I flubbed it pretty badly.

You reminded me, simply, that all I can do is my best. We have to trust God for the results. If it’s meant to be, it’s meant to be.

(Although I don’t think that means, in your world, that I should be a lazy slacker).

You often come through with that peaceful bit of commentary: Do your best, if it’s meant to be, it’ll be.

 

Day 168 – When I realized I need to go on a diet via autocorrect

Day 168 – Sunday, July 13th, 2014

Today, you complained about your knee (you were actually talking about your ankle).

And I meant to ask if it was because of the two burpees you did to show me what a burpee is.

My phone ‘corrected’ burpee to ‘burgers.’ Apparently, my iphone figured shaming me is the best way to help me be more aware of my food choices.

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